Nude bodies in the icy lake...

Whoo, hello.

This week was sort of random. Er, VERY random. Father's Day party was fun, the one I went to.
Uh, Monday I went with Anne to a soccer game and we hung out at the park. We got to kick some goals and talk around with the players, which were our classmates, so it was pretty fun.
Tuesday I had voice lessons for the first time. Let me tell you, it was sort of embarrassing. I have allergies, so my voice kept cracking and fading out. My instructor, Miss Gail, just laughed along with me and said it was okay. But still I was quite nervous, for she is the most wonderful singer. So afterwards, my mother took me to the mall and I got banana pants! Ha, they're actually yellow skinny jeans. From Wet Seal. They're awesome, but too long because I'm so short.
Alright, Wednesday I went over to Morgan and Jessie's house. We walked to Gordy's, this family owned restaurant in town, and had milkshakes and fries. We hung out at the elementary school park for a while, then went back to their house.
Now Thursday...so dramatic. It's really quite terrifying. I was talking to Geoff online, and he wanted me to go see a movie with him on Friday. I had plans to go with Anne, so I just said maybe. I was planning on sitting with both of them until this started.
He told me he was going to go with his friend Trevor to the movie and that these two girls from another school would be there, because he was trying to hook one of them up with Trevor and the other up with his brother. I didn't like the sound of him going to a movie without me and with other girls, but I didn't want to bother him, so I just acted like I was okay with it. Geoff thought I meant that I wasn't going to go, so he started saying things like "Well what if one of them offers to do something? It'd be hard to turn down, and I could slip if you aren't there." I completely took that the wrong way, and I thought he meant that he was planning on doing something with another girl. So I started to freak out completely, and I tore up my wrist with the handy razor again that night.
So I get a message on Myspace saying that he was sorry for saying things wrong and that he really didn't plan on doing anything. But I told him just because he mentioned the possibility, my trust was beginning to wear off. He said the only reason he said that thing was that he really wanted me to go and he thought I would have ditched him without being told that information. I started crying then and we both apologized, so things are alright now. (Note: that story is a LOT longer. But I edited a ton to save time and space.)
We went to the movie and all was well, except he didn't seem to be as close to me as usual. I think it was because his friend was there and so was mine, so it was awkward. But I think we're okay.
Alright, Saturday and Sunday, I went camping with Rae again. And we FINALLY went skinny dipping! In the rain! It was amazingly fun. Except these boats kept going by and watching our nude little bodies, so we felt violated. Oh, and also while we were camping, there were these two guys who pretty much stalked us around when we drove the golf cart saying "Hey, ladies" and "You're hot."
They were lame, so eh. We both have boyfriends anyway.
And I finally drove a four wheeler! In the woods! It was all just dandy, until I nearly crashed us into a tree. There's a short story there, but I better go so I'm not wasting your time by babbling.
Oh, I haven't told you about my..friend..Tyler have I? I don't think so. It's so complicated. But he proposes a dilemma that I love, and it's fate. So I'll try and come on tomorrow in my spare time and write an entire entry about him. Or whenever I have time. So keep checking in!

Goodnight, reader!
<3 M

Important link at the bottom of this!

Afternoon, friends!

For some reason it feels like forever and a half since I've written in here. Hmm. It's only been a week though...

Anyways. Let's get on with my week. Saturday I did nothing of interest, so we won't even talk about it, hehe. Beware- This post is horribly LONG!

Sunday...was a very dramatic day. To begin with, Monica came over to my house and we went down into the forest again. We had scissors with us and we opened up the bag, and it turns out the stuff inside looks identical to crystal meth! I have some pictures, but they aren't on the computer yet, and I'm a horribly lazy person. So you'll see them eventually if you'd really like to.
We got back to my house and decided to do a "tick check" to be sure we didn't have any. I being lucky didn't have a single one! But Monica...hahaha, she had two. One was in her hair that she made me get out while she was having a spazz attack, and the other was under her tank top which was under her t-shirt which was under her sweatshirt! How gross is that? Afterwards, we went on the computer and looked up how to identify meth and such just so we could be sure we really found it. Then all of a sudden Geoff signed online and IM'd me. The conversation was as follows:

Him: Sup?

Me: Hey, not much.

Me: Monica's here. You?

Him: Sweet. Nothing here.

Me: Ah. Dude, you won't believe what we found!

Him: Actually, I have to go. But we need to talk!

(Then he signed offline)

So my eyes got all huge and I was like "WE NEED TO TALK!? THAT'S THE BREAK-UP LINE!!!" and Monica was trying to calm me down. She said that it was nothing and that he just meant he wanted to talk with me. Now that really was on my mind the rest of the day, and I just felt so scared. We went to Monica's house afterwards and I called him. Conversation is as follows, with some editing:

"Hey, uhm, you said we need to talk?"

"Yeah, that'd be nice."

"Oh..okay...about..what?"

"Well, it's a conversation I'd rather not have over the phone."

(I began to shake)
"Er...why not?"

"I have to go, sorry, bye."
(And he hung up.)

I went back into the living room with Monica and I just burst into tears. I couldn't figure out why he'd be acting that way unless he wanted to end it. Doesn't it seem like it? Well, reader, I'd rather not admit to this, but after that I went into the bathroom. I found her razor, and well, I cut a few places into my wrist again. But I put a wad of TP on it so it wouldn't bleed onto my sweatshirt.
She and I went outside and just sat for a bit (I didn't tell her I did that), but then I got the courage to call him back. I said that if he needed to say something in person that he was to meet me at the top of our largest park in town, which was conveniently across the street from Monica's. He agreed and met me there. So when I saw him, I was so terrified...and reader, it was just like a movie. The instant he came, it started to pour rain, so we sat on a bench in the park in the rain showers. It turns out, all he needed to talk to me about was whether or not a summer relationship would work or not. I asked him if he wanted it to and he said that he would love for it too, but he was just questioning it because we hadn't seen each other since school had gotten out and apparently he missed me. I was in shock, and like "That's ALL this was about!?" and it was, so I pretty much had heart failure from relief that he wasn't going to break up with me. He looked into my eyes and noticed I had been crying, and then we started hugging, and he apologized for making me wait to hear news. He asked if I was okay, and I said "I guess, but I'll keep my sleeves down." I shouldn't have said that because then he lifted them up and saw the cuts, and he got even more upset. I guess he felt really bad about driving me enough to do that. So we set things straight and then he had to go to baseball, and after one more kiss, we parted. I'm so glad it was just that.

Wow, whew, Monday was nothing special. I stayed over at Monica's house two nights in a row. Yippee, right?

Ooooh, Tuesday at Monica's, Geoff came over for the movie thing. (Jared couldn't make it.) So we watched the movie "Se`ance" and stuff. When Geoff and I left, he walked me home, and we had a deep discussion. I finally confessed to him why I didn't want to do those sexual things with him at this age...and you know what he said? (quote)"I understand that. Don't worry, I'll wait until you're ready. And I wouldn't care if that was ten years from now!"
I'm so relieved! Now I can stay pure AND still have him!

Alright, I'm trying to shorten this up, so we'll skip the boring two days.

Friday (yesterday) I went over to his house in the morning/early afternoon to be with him before I went camping with Rae for two days. Not much happened at his house, just the usual hugs and kisses and conversations.
Camping was a blast. It was only like, 50 degrees outside, so no one was swimming at the lake. Being the weird people we are Rae, Myrissa, Brooke, and I all decided to go in the water. The instant I stepped in, I regretted it, because I bet the water was at the freezing point! I swear on my life, it was that cold! But we swam anyway, and we swam all the way to the middle of the lake where it was like, 100ft deep. I swear, I was so cold and I couldn't feel a single part on my body. Now I know what the poor people from Titanic had to go through. :O
We went swimming again today in the morning and it was probably colder. But we left and I got home this afternoon.

Whew! That's it! I'm done! There was my week in a nutshell!

Ooh, so anyway, the important link--

www.quizilla.com/users/Musical--Heart

That's my Quizilla page where I have my poems and my novel, Morning Frost. I said I would give you guys the link in time and so here it is! Please, read through my things, and let me know on what you think!

I'd better leave now so I can work on chapter eighteen.
Oh, and Happy Father's Day to your dad's tomorrow!

<3 M

"We found drugs!" says Anne

Hello, there!

I'm finally out of school, and it's officially the summer of 08! Let's hear a big HOORAY!

Well, if you read my last post and you're curious, I've decided to stick with my gut and not do any dirty things. Besides, Shelly and I made a vow not to anyway.

Well, hmm, the school week was boring until the last day. Everyone was counting down until the bell rang, and so we all got very excited when boarding the buses. I had Anne come home with me for the afternoon, because then we were going to stay over at Shelly's. So while we were waiting for Shelly to get back from her dentist appointment, Anne and I went for a walk in the forest next to my house. I got some really beautiful photos of the forest and this little river, so I was pleased with that. Everything was finally blooming, including all the beautiful flowers. [See the first and last pictures above.]
Well, anyway, we began to walk up this terribly steep hill loaded with pine trees and fallen branches. I fell quite a lot, since I'm not a good hiker, but we still made it surprisingly to the top. I was ahead of Anne, so when I got to the top and saw it, I was like "Whoa...." and so she said "What?!" and I pointed. There before us stood some rusty, creepy old abandoned shed. Now that probably doesn't sound at all weird, but trust me, it is. Why, you might ask? Because it's in the middle of freaking nowhere! There's no other building around here, or anything. Just a random shed. We looked inside, and there was a pile of something in the middle but it was too rusted over and covered with dirt for us to tell what it was. [See the second picture above of Anne peeking inside.]
So if that wasn't weird enough, when we came down the hill, we went to the other side and found these tree branches that were perfectly arranged in this scary looking tower. I wish I had a picture to show you guys, but my camera died right about then.
And just before it died, I looked at the base of a tree and saw some rope with two mysterious objects. They were bags of something, though they look like bean bags, and so I thought they were bean bags. But then I poked it with my foot, and there's something much more solid than beads or whatever inside. Dude, they were so heavy, it took quite an effort to raise them with our feet. I really don't know what's in them, but Anne thinks it's drugs. And I guess that's a possibility, seeing all the beer bottles lying around the area too, but still, who knows. We're going to go back down there again shortly, though armed, and we're going to open them up. [The bags are the third picture above.]

So yes, we went to Shelly's, and the following day (yesterday) we had a party at our friend Spencer's house to go to. It was really fun, and hehe...it went from eight to midnight, so we were playing night games outside. Since where I live is the rainiest place on the planet, it had rained that day, so there were puddles literally soaking his lawn. It was dark, and none of us could see them, so we all got soaked running around. I was wearing my red high tops, and well, they got soaked to the top. And Shelly lost her shoe in a puddle of mud, and that was ultimately hilarious. But all in all, it was a good time.

I didn't do diddly squat today. I was waiting for Monica to call me to hang out at her house, because we were going to rent a movie and watch it together and have Geoff and Jared (her honey) over. But no, Monica never called, and when I called her, there was no answer the entire day. So I'm a bit pissy now.

Well, enjoy the photos, and now I'm on summer vacay, I'll post a bit more frequently. Ciao!

<3 M